yes i said it i'm a fucking idiot and i cant do simple algebra

i hate myself and i hate who i am

now most of you may be asking why

well i'll tell you

i am only here to exist and no matter how hard i try i cant make people happy

but i try so hard to make them happpy that i hurt myself in the process

and right now i cant eat anything i havent been able to eat for almost a week now

i cant digest food

if i eat i puke it back up and hour later

my medication makes me into a zomby
and i hate it
but the only reason i like to take it is cause i am actually trying to get good grades right now and all i can do when i'm on those meds is focus

i'm slowly pushing a hell of alot of people away right now and the one person i really like i'm trying to push away but he wont go away

and as awesome as that is it is really hard for me to trust people

especially guys

and i may be driving away someone that might actually make me ahappy and god forbid that happen

hence the title